Thursday, 15 September 2011

WHY TF2 SO UPDATE!

I haven't been able to update in a week because of schholl and work. I havent gotten more then 16 hours of sleep since monday. Thats 4 hours a night. This is mostly due to me working until midnight almost every day, and having to get up at 6 to go to school.
Ive been doing most homework in school, but social studdies is falling behind. Mostly because I have to do all the work at home, and keep working.

But thats not the issue.

The issue is that I have a social paper due yesterday (legit. Its so late) And then TF2 decides to put up this:



So now im super tired, trying to do a social paper, and a sticky jumper that WORKS is mocking me. Robin knows I had a paper due. he's just trying to destroy me.

Random tired quote. "A gun that has limited ammo is only good until you run out of ammo. Remember, shotgun beats fists everytime"

Thursday, 1 September 2011

Cuz It's 11:30 and im me

This is entertaining. This is like watching a car crash. And the car was a bitch to me for the past 6 months.

Your being self destructive. And I'm the happy one. Not because you're misserable. Because I'm free.
Its what you wanted right? You begged me to leave. To be happy. To find better.

Deep down you know I was too good for you. Deep down you know you were never good enough.
And you know what I hope?

That deeper down you still love me.

Deep down I want you to be in love with me. I want you to see what you asked for. And I want you to regret it. I want you to look at me like you love me. I want you to be unhappy seeing me with another girl. And mostly, I want you to be unhappy when I'm not unhappy.

You wanted this. I want you to remember this. You asked for it. You begged for it. You get what You deserve. You, and only You are responsible for your own life. And only You can be to blame for your short commings. Only You can be blamed for this.



Because you asked me to go. You can't blame me for cheering as I left.

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For everyone who I didn't/aren't dating, this concept in the last paragraph is gonna matter for bloodlust. More on that one tmr.

ps. could people PLEASE comment ON the bloodlusts, so I know what to fix/ improve on with writing.

Sunday, 28 August 2011

Life: So im single

Yep, I feel a little bad about the break up.
But then I asked the guys at work if I was an ass. They managed to stop cheating on their girl friends* long enough to say "no".

Unrelated... I think this song pretty much sums up how I'm feeling without Diana...


*in Mike Z's case its his bf

Friday, 12 August 2011

RE: Bloodlust

For those of you wondering, I havent given up on my little project. The issue I've currently ran into is that i lack any form of structure in my days. When I started, I had school, so I could write durring lectures (my teachers hate me), however now, I spend most of my days playing TF2.

The story of Bloodlust needs to be revised. I always had a direction I wanted it to go in, but as I got deeper into it, I found that I hadn't set up an established base for that story to spring from. Somtime before the 29th of August I will revise the previous chapters. And, assuming I can get off my duff, will write the rest of the story.

I do not want it to die. I just didn't give it a proper birth.

Thursday, 21 July 2011

I Love The Smell of Robot Masters In The Morning

And this is what  I did today.9:00
-Loaded up Megaman 2 on hard mode.
-Decided to fight Metalman first.
9:30
-Killed Metalman. He was hard, but I managed to adjust for the difficulty.
-Starting Flashman's stage.
9:32
-Done Flashman.
9:45
-Went to fight Quickman. Died 15 times. Fuck it.
-Ran away to go fight Bubbleman.
10:00
-Fucking spikes.
-Ran away to go fight Heatman.
10:10
-GOD DAMN FUCKING PLATFORMS QUIT DISSAPEARING WHEN IM JUMPING ON YOU!
-Ran away to go fight Woodman.
10:20
-Finally stopped laughing at "Wood"man's name. Now to fight him.
10:30
-Although I didn't have fire, saw blades seem pretty good at taking down trees. Woodman's stage now resembles a sawdust mill.
-Leaving a path of destruction behind, I return to fight  Quickman.
10:35
-Fuck that.
11:00
-Put a curse on Quickman's family.
-Now to go deal with Bubbleman again. I hate spikes.
11:30
-I believe my hand is healing quite nicley. Unrelated, I need a new wall to punch.
11:55
-Got all the way through his idiotic-spikey-celing-you-jump-extra-high-because-we-hate-you lair. Bubbleman died in a few seconds.
-Now to go deal with Crashman.
12:00
-Nope. Too many fucking birds.
-Lets try Heatman again.
12:05
-Nope.
-Off to try Airman. Yay, time to fight a guy who has an entire level dedicated to falling off platforms.
12:15
-Airman was strangley easy. A few slow moving timed jumps then a quick fight to the death. I also got a flying surf board.
-Now to go fight Heatman again.
12:30
-Fuck you platforms. I have a surfboard.
-Died because the surfboard has just under the amount of fule I need.
12:45
-Managed to use the surfboard to almost get to the end, then jump the rest. Died to Heatman.
12:50
-Used Bubbles to kill Heatman. I dont know why I didn't earlier.
-Fuck it. I'll fight Quickman .
1:15
-I finally managed to make it through his stage. God damn those lasers. Killed Quickman with a few guhsts of wind and some glitter. Now to propperly despose of the body.
1:30
-I need a new lawnmower. Or one with less Quickman peices stuck in it.
-Started Crashman's level.
1:45
-Used Flashmans ability to get past those birds. Finally made it to Crashman. Killed him with a few boomerangs.
-Sweet, time to fight Dr.Wily.
1:50
-Ran in, died from a bird.
1:55
-Started playing Paper Mario.

Thursday, 7 July 2011

Blood Lust: 9

“Now Doctor Savage, before I let you have a seat there is one personal inquiry I have.” Mr. Smiley flashed his white teeth as he walked up to Jack. “During your time in prison, were you aware of the events occurring in the outside world?”

“No,” replied Jack simply.

-

Jack was certain he was dreaming. As he ran alongside Hunter, clutching a shotgun in his hand, Jack felt free for the first time in years. However, as he ran towards the sounds of gunfire and fighting, Jack began to question how long his escape would last. Dashing over bodies and rubble the duo made their way from corridor to corridor; following a path that only hunter seemed to know. All at once, Hunter stopped at an intersection. Motioning down the hall, he began giving orders to Jack. “I’ll go up ahead, kill off the Locusts, and make sure the evac is ready. You will go down the other hall, take your first two lefts, then go down about fifty feet. My man is wounded and needs medical attention. I hope to god you haven’t lost your touch.”

Hunter took off towards the sound of gunfire. Immediately Jack began to follow his orders, running down the hall as he held his shotgun close to his body. The running gave him time to evaluate his situation. Hunter, a man he had worked on years before, had come back to break him out of his isolation. Turning the first corner, Jack wondered what twist of fate had forced Hunter to break him out, and what had happened to the world. As Jack turned the second corner he began to hear the sound of a man crying out in pain. But this was not the sound of a battle hardened soldier like Jack was used to, this was the sound of a youth, a scared youth who had been deserted in the middle of a combat situation. As Jack rounded the corner he saw the youth, a twenty year old skinny man painfully resting on his back. A pool of blood surrounded his leg. As Jack sprinted down the hall to the youth all of his medical training came flooding back to him. “Hey kid, what happened?”

The youth tried to sit up, but fell back down as he cringed from the pain. “What do you think happened? I was shot in my god damn leg!”

As the youth continued to shout at Jack, calling him a blind imbecile, Jack ripped his shirt off and tied it around the bleeding leg. The bullet was a clean shot strait through, but the leg was still bleeding. “Hey, you got any bullets on you?”

The youth stopped yelling for a few moments, bewildered by Jacks question. “Yeah, pocket on the right. Why do you need bullets though?”

Jack grabbed a gun out of the pocket, also finding a match which he took, removing the bullets as he grabbed two pieces of wood. Putting one piece of wood in the youth’s jaws he covered the other piece with gunpowder from the bullets. “Bite,” was Jack’s simple command. With that he lit the match and set the gunpowder on fire. Waiting a second for the initial burst of flame to die down, Jack stuck the flaming piece of wood into the youth’s leg.

There were a few minutes of screaming that followed.

“Why in God’s name did you do that? Where is the fucking medic! I need a real doctor.”

“Listen kid, I needed to cauterize the wound, at least now you won’t bleed out. And later I’ll get you patched up for real.”

“I don’t want you coming anywhere near me until you shave.”

For the first time in three years Jack touched his face and realized his normally cleanly shaven face was covered with a beard. Three years in a prison cell can do that to a guy. Jack suddenly burst out laughing. Three years of isolation had almost driven him insane, and finally, from one simple, cynical joke, Jack realized he wasn’t alone anymore. As the youth stared up to the scruffy, hysteric man who had just burned him, he strangely didn’t feel afraid. There was something about this man, something that made him confident things would be ok. Jack broke from his laughter. “Ha, sorry, I’ve been locked up for god knows how long. Name’s Jack. And how did you get in this prison.”

The youth looked up at him. “I’m Philip. And I came here because Hunter thinks you can change things.”

Jack was bewildered. “I don’t think I can change much, other than a few patch jobs here and there.”

Philip stared at Jack for a few minutes as Jack realised he had said something wrong. “You really don’t know what happened, do you?”

-

Jack looked directly at Mr. Smiley as he got up. “When I escaped from prison, I had no idea the shit I was getting into.”

Saturday, 2 July 2011

Life: Summer TIME!

Summer is upon us. At least thats what the Steam store keeps telling me while it asks for my money. So, ive set up a new work scedule. And SUNDAY is the day i have off. So... hopefully you will get a 2x update tomorrow. And by 2x i mean youll get what I give you.

Oh, and my knee still hurts like a bitch. Fuck.